Happy Easter!!!

HAPPY EASTER TO ALL!!!

Spring is coming

Spring is coming...even thonugh in my city temperatures are not so high and we'll have rainy days..
Spring is my favourite season...so full of colours and perfumes all around. 
This season makes me generally so happy..but this year things are going in  a different way. I'm pretty sad...the situation of the company I work for isn't easy.
I was thinking about all these things when I was having lunch with my colleagues.

I feel different from the "others"..I can't pretend of being happy...They were smiling for silly jokes...but I coulndn't.

I envy so much the most of the people because they seem not to be touched by anything, while I feel worried or sad. The problem is I'm too sensitive, even if I  externaly appear in the opposite way. 

Tomorrow another harsh day is waiting for me...because probably they will say to us what the company's destiny will be. I want to share this song because I like it...it makes me think about spring...and it is able to make me feel better.

Disappointing colleagues

Today, while I was in my office, I was wondering why people are so hypocrite...It's a fault I can't bear. And I'm so disappointed because it is a fault I discovered in a man I admired a lot!
He's so clever and it's interesting to talk with him...but he has got this terrible fault. I don't want to be the kind of person who can't bear anyone and anything...but it's a fault you can get over it. I don't know why he lied to me...probably for not hurt me...
But the truth is that probably I won't work for his project anymore... But I'm sincerely not disappointed for that...because I hated that kind of work ...so mega-boring...and I understand that they are saving money and I'm the newcomer so...no problem!!! 
But please, say it to me....don't allow me to discover it by other persons..
You are the technical head...you have to say it!!! Why do people like technical heads or program manager lack the courage to say the truth??? I think people who want to be a manager should be very clever and corageous, expecially in a period like the one we are living now!!
I can't understand why he didn't say it to me...I wouldn't cry or get angry for that...I'm not that kind of person!!!
But I think that truth generally is in the middle....so probably it's also my fault...probably I seem just that kind of person!!!
Don't know!!

Paulo Coelho's book

In this period I'm reading a Paulo Coelho's book, titled "Veronika decides to die". Not a very cheerful book one could say...in fact it isn't a cheerful book, but I'm approchiating it.
I've read other books from Coelho: "Devil and Miss Prim", "Eleven minutes", "The Alchemist" and "Veronika decides to die". Although the rest of the world, or at least the major part of the people think that "The Alchemist" is a great book, I don't adore it...It is just a sort of fairy tale, which wants to teach people that everyone have to follow the inner voice, its own vocation...
It's not bad....but sincerely I prefer "Eleven minutes" and "Veronika decides to die". The last one made me to think about the real meaning of our life and the face that we are so accustomed to be as other peopler want us to be that we don't try to be ourself, to pull out our real nature. The reason we don't do that is the fear: we are afraid of not being loved just the way we are. To be as we really are means also to appear "mad" to others because our real nature leads us to do things that are not rational, and people can't understand that.
I think that this book is very nice, and it is making me to think about a lot of things. 
I want to share a Paulo Coelho's poems that I really like:

Some of the things I learned in life...

Here are some of the things I learned in life,

That no matter how good a person is, sometimes they can hurt you...
 and because of this we must forgive.

It takes years to build trust & only seconds to destroy it...

we dont have to change friends if we understand that friends change...
the circumstances and the environment influence our lives, but we are the ones who are
responsible for ourselves...

that you have to control your acts, or the will control you...
that patience requires much practice...
that there are people who love us, but simply dont know how to show it...
that sometimes the person you think will hurt you and make you fall...
is instead one of the few who will help you get up.
... you should never tell a child that dreams are fake, it would be a tragedy if they knew.
Its not always enough to be forgiven by someone... in most cases you have to forgive yourself first...

...that no matter in how many pieces your heart is broken..the world doesnt stop to fix it.

.. maybe the God wants us to meet all the wrong people first before meeting the right one... so when
we finally meet the right one we are grateful for that gift.

.. When the door of happiness closes, another opens...but often we look so long at the closed one..
we dont see what was open for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind in which you can sit on a porch and walk,without saying a word, &
when you leave it feels like it was the best conversation you ever had.

Its true we dont know what we have until we find it...but its also true, we dont know what we've been missing util it arrives.

It only takes a minute to offend someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone... but,
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Dont look for appearances, they can be deceiving,
Dont go for wealthm because even that can fade.
find someone who makes you smile, because it only takes a smile to make a fay better.
find what makes your heart smile.

there are moments in life when you miss someone so much... that you can take them out of your dream and hug them for real.

Dream what you want, go wherever you want to go..because you have only one life... & one chance to do the things you want to do.

the happiest people do not necessarily have the best of everything...they just make the best of everything that comes their way.

the best future is based on a forgotten past... you cant go on well in life until you let go of your past failures & heartaches.

when you were born you were crying... and everyone around you smiled...
live your life so that when you die, you're the one that is smiling... and everyone around you is crying.

(Paulo Coelho)